tired of being sick, late, missing meetings and appointments. tired of missing out. tired of being tired. something is about to break. i can feel it.
i do believe G-d is working. i am struggling to find out what i'm supposed to do. what direction to go in. why is all this happening? i will not question there is a plan for my life. i simply don't understand it.
am i missing something? am i not doing something right? i feel with certainty the changes we are making are right. the family is becoming closer. not only to each other but to the calling on our life.
have i moved beyond where i am now. is the sickness from hanging on to a direction i'm not a part of? please G-d show me what i am supposed to do.
we are beginning a family time of studying scripture and asking G-d for direction. we need direction. and peace. and rest.
so i guess the only thing i can do is wait. and scream. and cry. and feel so disconnected from all that i know. please G-d show me what to do.
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Mom, I questioned everything in a lecture the other day.
Duncan started talking about healing and how some people don't have enough faith or the sin in their lives keeps them from being healed. At this point I was fuming at the fact that he would say that. One of the girls who's Dad almost died and now can't function said, so the reason my Dad is unable to feed himself and isn't getting healed is because of this? Duncan went on to tell us that it isn't always just those two answers. The reality is the kingdom of G-d isn't here yet. Some people aren't healed because of that reason.
I am not satisfied with that answer either. All I can do is continue to fight for your healing. It is not a lack of faith or sin in your life. I'm tired of people talking when they don't know the answers.
I love you very much... Sorry this comment is so long. I'm just tired of seeing you sick and not being able to do anything about it or be there for you.
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