decisions

i thought the unveiling of all past pain and hurt would leave me crushed

how wrong i was

not only was i crushed

i have been slammed pressed stomped left slapped cut pounded ignored taken used dropped beaten covered hidden kicked punched ripped..... i guess my point has been made

i've nothing left to fear

which is the point i guess

praying for a path to be revealed i have found quite the opposite

standing with my hands by my side looking left then right then forward

nothing in sight

no choice to make

the paths have all been covered

i see no direction

which way do i go

do i clear each of the paths and then decide

do i choose one and clear it hoping it was the correct choice

i have waited in pain and agony trying to decide what to do

today i was broken in pain

people have chosen situations i am unable to support or defend

hurt crept in from today and yesterday and many years ago

where did all this come from

why today

i don't need this i'm trying to make decisions

i have a path to clear...................

i thought i had a path to clear

it was made clear to me today

a single path is before me

it was cleared a long time ago

i am the one entangled in a mess

it was myself that needed to be cleared