simple life

i am loving the process of simplifying our life. i have felt for awhile this lifestyle change was coming. thankfully i made the decision to jump in and do it. there was a longing to neglect the selfish behavior fostered by commercialism. i have a goal to die to self daily. it is rather impossible to achieve this goal unless i reduce the amount i am dependent on others. don't get me wrong. i love community and value its company. i do not like however, the pressure to have what you have, to live where you live, use what you use and drive what you drive. i choose to neglect my needs so i will be ready to help others when the time comes.

i do not want to be pampered. i have traded that life a long time ago. i do not need to purchase new clothes. i won't go naked. i don't understand the mentality of some who feel they "deserve" more. oh G-d forgive me if i ever become arrogant in needing the best of everything.

as much as i simplify things, i find my environment away from home too complicated. not sure how to handle this.

i would love to live in a community house. serving the neighborhood where i live. since part of that isn't possible right now, i will turn my home into a place of rest for my neighbors. i want to plant a garden to share. flowers to enjoy and a simple path for walks. there is so much work to do i feel it may be impossible to accomplish it all. i must press on. i'm sure we have a neighbor or two who need a simple lunch on a weekday afternoon or a simple glass of tea on the porch. i may not be able to change the entire world but i can start with my neighborhood. they are my motivation.

i will have sweet dreams tonight. peace